Unwavering Faith

We had our 14 Week ultrasound and appointment with Dr. Troy yesterday.

We both went in not knowing what to expect. We had both felt so peaceful, happy, and confident about God’s power since Baby B’s previous ultrasound results.. but I think we both knew deep down that this wouldn’t be the appointment that God’s miracle would be presented.

And we were right.

The fluid behind Baby B’s head and down its spine had increased from 9mm to a whopping 5cm! We both immediately saw it on the big ultrasound screen. And aside from our instinctive parental concern for Baby…. we both felt unusually calm about the findings.

When Dr. Troy discussed results with us and flat out told us that the prognosis is poor, and that I was now high-risk and that this would definitely be a hard pregnancy.. I still strangely felt zero ounce of worry or fear. I actually think the doctor was shocked at both of our reactions to the news, especially mine as a mother.

The two diagnosis that Dr. Troy (& our old doctor) suspects are: cystic hygroma or encephalocele. One would mean some sort of neural tube defect, that could cause permanent brain or spinal defects & the other is a disease in the lymphatic system, of which Baby’s heart would be over worked in the womb and eventually give out.

Even with these two rare and serious conditions, we had zero doubts that we would want to keep Baby and ride out the pregnancy until the very end. On board with our decision to keep baby, Dr. Troy made a plan to continue prenatal visits regularly & also referred us to see a fetal medicine specialist (hopefully sometime next week) so that they can give us a more clear diagnosis about what the abnormal fluid could be, and where to go from there.

This normally would be heart breaking news for any parents, especially first time parents. And I do still remember how I felt just a few weeks ago when our old doctor [horribly] disclosed this same information to us. But I can honestly say that I do not feel the same now as I did then. I feel stronger. I feel at peace. And I know I’m probably sounding extremely crazy to anyone that’s following this journey of ours with Baby… but my faith and trust in God has multiplied exponentially within these last few weeks, and I truly know in my heart that God is goin’ to take care of us in the end.

I really do believe that Baby B will be welcomed into this world and be in our arms come January 2019. We love you so much already, little nugget. Stay healthy and comfy in there, and we can’t wait to meet you in a few months!