Grief doesn't look the same for everyone or every tragic event. There's no "right or wrong" way to grieve. I have been strong for the most part, and whenever anyone asks how I'm doing.. my automatic is answer is always "I'm good" or "I'm fine". And I'd say about 75% of the time, I really …
Hope From Noah
10/3/18 • Day 3 • Hope.... and what it means to me The definition of HOPE is (1) a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen (2) a feeling of trust. In losing a child, you definitely have the expectation that it won't happen again in the future.. but that trust …
Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month
10/2/18 • Day 2 • Introductions This May of 2018, we were blessed with the news that we were pregnant with our first child! We were both so ecstatic and were in TEARS when we found out. We are both healthy, active, and take care of our bodies so we didn’t think we would be …
I’m Still Human
Today is one day shy of 2 weeks since I gave birth to my sleeping angel, Noah. Most of the days since then have been good — given the circumstances of our new reality. But there have been some pretty terrible moments and days thrown in there. The day Noah was born, our best friends …
Be Free, Little Noah
We woke up this morning to the heaviest rainstorm I've seen/heard in a long time. The whole house was dark, our backyard was a blur, and I could hear the flood of raindrops pounding on our roof. It was the Heavens and all the angels crying for us and mourning with us. Because today.... we …
Noah Ray Ballard
On Thursday September 6 2018 at 07:31am, our sweet baby angel Noah Ray Ballard was born sleeping. 👼🏼 Noah Ray Ballard 👼🏼 09-06-18 It was a blur while everything was going on yesterday, but now that I've had a whole day to process everything it's all so vivid to me now. It started on Wednesday... …
Scared Mama
Today marks 18 Weeks, and Baby is growing right on track!! It's actually weighing a little more than what my Bump App is saying — Baby is a whopping 7oz (measured by the anatomy ultrasound on Tuesday) All other measurements are within normal ranges, and I felt Baby move for the first time last week …
Fetal Medicine Appointment
Since our pregnancy is now labeled as high risk, Dr. Troy was able to expedite our referral and we got an appointment with the Fetal Medicine Specialists today. The appointment went just as we had expected. The fluid around Baby was still there, and we now have a definite diagnosis of a cystic hygroma. In …
Unwavering Faith
We had our 14 Week ultrasound and appointment with Dr. Troy yesterday. We both went in not knowing what to expect. We had both felt so peaceful, happy, and confident about God's power since Baby B's previous ultrasound results.. but I think we both knew deep down that this wouldn't be the appointment that God's …
Bad Doctor
Let me start off by saying: We have kicked our old doctor to the curb (Dr. Christopher Serrano) & completely switched to a different practice to a new OBGYN. And here's the [long] reason why..... it's worth the time to read, I promise. Last Thursday, we had our 11 week appointment and ultrasound. Baby B …
Noah’s Ray of Sunshine 